four letter word

Love.
A four letter word that has the ability to reach into the depths of your soul and take you for everything you are.
Love has the ability to rip your world apart along side your heart.
It will sneak inside of you unexpectedly and plant itself within you like an unavoidable disease that consumes your every move.
And it will live inside of you till it no longer lives anymore.
It will make you vulnerable.
It will make you believe it has the ability to conquer everything and anything until it defeats you itself, leaving you completely exposed and broken.
It will make you build walls and it will want you to take them down as well.
And though it will hurt you it will make you grow, and live and learn, and vow to yourself you won't give up as many pieces the next time.
But you do.
You give in and you let go and you forget that love hurt you before.
Maybe this time it will be nice.
Maybe this time it won't hurt as much.
It won't leave you feeling so vulnerable because you let somebody wander inside and plant a seed of hope in your heart.
It won't strip you down or leave you hanging.
Maybe this time it will make all the heartache worth it.
Horrible how it makes you crave something you know will hurt and feel so good all at the same time.
A four letter word that has the ability to build you up and tear you down.

another stone

these lonely nights, they're getting old.
they're taking their toll, leaving me cold.
they're making me feel, making me hurt,
keep me up, building walls around my heart.

And brick by brick, i'll lay another stone,

to keep my heart hidden from the unknown.

Maybe enough of these nights, will keep it safe,
the stronger my walls, the less likely i'll break.

My Chained Heart

These old chains you built around me,

They’re finally starting to loosen their way.

Chained from all the pain you caused,

All of the lies you built from shades of grey.

Your chains have lived here too long by now,

Never letting me break free.

Shackling me within your cold heart,

 Where I lived alone, so helplessly.

These chains weren’t always so tight then,

From the start I couldn’t feel them there,

And as time progressed I felt links grow,

With every lie you wanted to share.

The web you created from chains you built,

Around my weary heart,

Anchored me to you, right from the very start.

These chains you built around me,

They’re finally breaking free,

And as each link loosens,
I’m finally able to see.

See the pain that you caused within my soul,

The destruction you created within my heart’s walls.

And as the chains loosen, I’m starting to heal,

From all of the pain you made my heart feel.

I’m letting go, link by link,

Though it seems so slow,

Breaking away the chains,

That surrounded me head to toe.

© nLdm