kanye inspired with all that power

i hold the power

the balls in my court

im the one laughing

at your life, your joke

here we go again with all your bullshit

all the problems you’ve gotta now sit with

laughing at what you did all the shit you pulled.

trying to get away with what you thought you could

with the blanket you pulled over my eyes

with all your lies hiding your disguise.

now im the one laughing

the balls in my court

im holding onto all the power.

watching your life fall short.

you thought you had it all planned out

you thought you were the one running the show on me now.

well kanyes right when he sang it out loud.

that no one man should have all that power.

you abused everything you ever had

lost it all so now youve got nothing now.

and you joke around and you laugh at what ive got

when im the one laughing at what your about.

ive got more then you ever will

im the one living the life thrill for thrill .

envy me now envy all i got 

envy me for everything im about

envy me now for the life i live

its a hell of a life im livin’ kid

and when i go out dont you worry about what i do

where im at, who im with, cause it wont be you,

dont you worry about what i got going on

cause everything you got is going wrong

yeah just like kanye i got all that power

running thrill for thrill hour by hour

im in the drivers seat of this life i got now.

flyin on past everything your about

© nldm

anywhere from this

I didn't think it could get much worse the this. 

I didn't think we could get further from here. 

I didn't think you could be any colder to me. 

I didn't think so many things I now know you can be. 

And I'm not sure where to turn without you here.

And I'm not sure where to go, nothing seems quite clear. 

If it wasn't for you I wouldn't be where I am. 

But where am I really without any plans. 

And I didn't think we would really ever come to this. 

I didn't think you would ever cut me up like you did. 

And I didn't see what I now know your made of. 

I didn't think you were as cold as this, made of such tough love. 

And there's so much to me you don't know about. 

So much you can't seem to fathom so much you'll never know of.

And there's so much I've accomplished that you can't see. 

So many things I'm proud of. So much you'll never be. 

© nldm

breath me in

breath me in 

breath me out.

let me in 

and never without.

breath me in

and break these walls.

breath me out 

dont let me fall.

dont lose me

be lost with me

dont lose me.

dont let me go.

breath me in

and let me stay.

dont let me go.

hold me still.

hold me there.

breath me in

let me feel you there.

breath me in

and feel me here.

breath me out 

erase my fears

take my breath and let me stay.

within your heart.

this place ive made.

with every breath

i let go of these walls.

with every sigh

i let you in.

with every whisper 

you hold my heart

with every breath you breath.

you breath me. 

© nldm

maps

i’d get in my car and i’d drive for days.

if days would bring me closer to where you would be.

and i’d get on my bike and i’d ride for miles.

if miles would let me hold you in my arms.

and i’d take a plane or a train or a car.

no matter where you were no matter how far.

id put on my shoes and id walk for years.

if years would make me feel your heart beat. 

if i could trace my fingers along a map.

trace my way to you and never look back.

if i could trace my way over interstates and highways.

trace my fingers along the page until they met your face.

trace my way past all the other cars.

trace my way to you no matter how far.

id follow my fingers till they met yours.

id follow the creases till im standing in your view.

i’d trace the creases that would lead me to you. 

if only my fingers could take me there.

if what i traced on this map would bring me where you are. 

 © nldm

further

can i get much further?

can i get much further from here?

where can i go when im further 

further from where i’ve been.

from where i’ve come.

and i owe it to you to push me this far.

far from what i know far from who you are.

and i always knew it would end up like this.

i always knew it would end like this.

further from you.

further from who you are.

further from what i want.

to never be apart. 

its time for me to say thanks.

thanks for all the pushing.

thanks for all of the pain

and for all the chaos you filled

i only have myself to blame

so thanks for the push 

it got me further you see.

further from what i dont want 

further from who you are

further from everything i dont need.

and ill keep running further and further indeed.

im running from it.

and im not looking back.

running wherever my heart takes me.

wherever your not. 

im running from all the hurt.

from the pain you ever caused.

from everything this ever was.

and i’ll keep running

further and further.

far and far.

further from anything this ever was.

far from everything i never want to be.

can i get much further?

can i get much further from here?

where can i go when im further 

further from where i’ve been.

from where i’ve come.

from who you are. 

 © nldm

something from nothing

its not about where you’ve been

but where your going.

and its not about what you know

but who your knowing.

and its not about what you do

but what your doing.

its about making something from nothing.

doesn’t matter how long it takes you,

as long as your getting there.

draw a map from a to b.

ill draw a map from you to me.

if only the lines guaranteed me to get there.

guaranteed me to be where you are. 

and it doesnt matter where you’ve been, 

all that matters is where your going.

as long as i’m going with you.

and its not about what you know,

but who your knowing,

as long as im always knowing you.

and its not about what you do 

but what your doing,

as long as im always doing what i love with you.

its about making something from nothing,

something from nothing with you.

it doesnt matter where your going

as long as my hands in yours.

and it doesnt matter who your knowing.

as long as im knowing you.

my hand in your hand

and my heart in your heart.

wherever your going is where i want to be.

making something from nothing, you and me.

 © nldm

rigid routines

our lives have been put into rigid routines.

calenders are broken into semesters. 

semesters into syllabuses. 

syllabuses into weeks.

weeks into readings.

readings into midterms.

midterms into multiple choice test questions.

multiple choice tests into percentages.

percentages into pass or fails.

pass or fails into triumphs or defeat.

triumph and defeat into satisfaction or sorrow.

satisfaction into success.

sorrow into misery.

rigid routines of post secondary education.

all for a piece of paper with university approval.

a piece of paper with a university approval into a potential job.

a potential job into money.

a potential job into no potential.

no potential into no money.

all for a piece of paper and a rigid routine. 

© nldm

happiness ...

if you aren't happy doing what your doing... you won't do well ....
so do what makes you happy ...

© nldm

a big world .

this world is big.

there are things you will never experience.

things you will never see.

places you will never hear of.

people you will never meet.

there are things you will never know.

and places you won’t care to go.

there are languages you will never learn to speak,

opportunities you will never know to seek.

something you should learn to do 

is go where ever the world wants to take you.

go places you have never been.

do the things your dreams lie within.

take every moment you have and do the things you love

even if it seems unrealistic or even a bit too tough.

experience as much as you can 

go on a whim, you don’t need a plan.

do what your heart feels it should

do everything you wish you could. 

this world is much bigger then you.

take it all in and learn from it too.

© nldm

changing seasons

just like the seasons change so does every aspect of our lives.

we grow like the trees & we shed leaves and colors.

we learn to get by with nothing covering our backs other then the hope that our leaves will grow again & cover some of the scars we have survived. 

we go through sunny days and snow storms.

rainy days & thunder clouds.

we learn to protect ourselves from changing weather but forget to protect our hearts from changing people. 

we watch the seasons change & learn to cope with what we know is coming.

but we forget to remember that just like the seasons people change too.

we forget that people’s leaves change colors, some even fall off.

some trees get knocked down.

some make themselves useless & some useful.

some even die.

with every changing season we embrace, we need to embrace the change within ourselves and others.

we need to remember that change isn’t always bad because it can be good.

it isn’t always unnecessary because it can be necessary. 

change will help us grow.

& even if it doesn’t. it will always bring us into another season. 

© nldm