drowning

and I’m deep,

deeper then the oceans,

deeper then the seas,

I’m twisted and scared, 

but this is me.

i write my own rules,

play by my own song,

I’m as deep as an ocean,

and I’m drowning in my wrongs.

I’ve broken what I’ve touched,

and touched what I’ve broken,

my cuts still haven’t healed,

from harsh words spoken.

look into my oceans,

you will see,

the pain in these eyes,

it constantly follows me.

I’m deeper then oceans,

deeper then seas,

I’m constantly worried,

but this is me.

I’m drowning here,

I’m no longer afloat,

I’m drowning in my thoughts,

and this terrifies me. 

I’m sinking in myself,

steeper and steeper,

I’m gasping for air,

but i’ve only sunk deeper. 

I’ve finally hit the bottom,

I’m sinking in my sand,

struggling to get out,

reaching for a hand.

there’s no body there,

I’m reaching for anyone,

I’m filled with emptiness now,

I’d do anything to be found. 

© NLDM