go fish

your given a set and your searching for a pair

go fish

you make your way by asking questions

go fish

you find some that give you what you need but they’re not what you want

go fish

you keep asking for what the other person has to offer

go fish

your hoping you will win the next hand but people are competing for what you need 

go fish

you compile your cards in hopes to win

go fish

you’ve compiled pairs and some experience to play the game

go fish

you keep fishing till there’s no cards left

or nothing left of you.

go fish.
© nldm 

six freaking pounds

well,
it is obviously clear.... i completely, whether it be with or without trying have fallen off my rocker.
i would like to place blame on my newly acquired boyfriend, which in retrospect doesn't seem so new considering he has conquered six months within my relationship realm... which evidently resulted in six pounds... gained sadly - on his end (like i'm about to admit i gained six pounds.) my relationship has acquired new habits... one of those habits includes me (obviously)... sitting in front of the tube with an extra six pounds (of chris, clearly) and watching reruns of criminal minds (non stop). this nasty habit usually includes one of my two new found obsessions -- EDAMAME (if you don't know what this is ... google it, then proceed to your nearest grocery store and buy it for the sake of your taste buds) as well as BAGEL BITES (self explanatory & the culprit of said six pounds).
throughout several reruns of criminal minds it has become clear that my life is in limbo.
same job, same friends, same boy, same ..... everything... except less money ??? (aritzia .... damn you)
therefore my inspiration to write heart wrenching voo doo has taken a back seat for the obvious reason that nothing heart wrenching has happened to me.
i would like to place blame on the music & movie industry as well because nothing good has come from either recently in order to pull on my emotional heart strings.
i would also like to call on mother nature due to her lack of sunshine she has made it very difficult for me to go about changing my daily schedule (my tan skin doesn't like the cold, therefore it forbids my body to go 'play in the snow' -- no f-ing thanks winter.)
for the few fans that i have ... i promise to rack my brain more often for words, whether they be inspirational, witty, sad, or just anything you can relate to.
i'll find my way out of limbo... and off of the couch (soon hopefully).
in the meantime you can check out my added six pounds and multiple reasons for distraction HERE
(he can rhyme better then me anyways)
i appreciate the support more then you know,
and will make an added effort to make this a daily routine... like brushing my teeth....
if i don't post twice in one day don't judge me though... i swear i brush twice...
;)

let her bleed

you broke her but you set her free.

and the bruises you left set boundaries

for everything she wouldn’t need.

from the inside out you made her bleed.

and the burdens she wouldn’t care to feel.

from all of her days you attempted to steal.

where she laid her heart for you to keep

and buried her life within you so deep

and with every hurtful word you cut right through,

with your sticks and stones you buried her blue.

from the inside out you made her bleed

and day by day you continued to proceed.

you left her there, hung her out to dry,

as all of her days passed you by.

you couldn’t understand the depths of her soul,

mesmerized by her strength, is where you lost control

and you couldn’t hold on as she grew free,

grew from everything you wouldn’t let her see.

she could feel more then you ever could,

and she would grow stronger then you ever would.

it wasn’t long before she learnt to let go,

of the chains you built around her, moving her so slow.

and it took some time but she learnt to run,

from everything you let yourself become. 

© nldm 

sink or swim

you can either sink or swim .... and sinking seems easier ... 
until you cant breath anymore ... 
© nldm 

twenty eleven

a new year.

a new apartment.

a few new friends.

a few more life lessons to come my way.

a few more regrets and a few more things to be thankful for.

i am completely unsure of what two thousand and eleven has in store for me.

i hope it means i have more time to write because lately i’ve hardly found the time to shave my legs .... graphic i know.

by the end of this year i hope to accomplish more.

live more.

laugh more.

enjoy the things i have more then before.

i hope to give into my guilty pleasure and buy more clothing, but only if i can afford to.

and only if i can make closet space... or afford a pax ikea wardrobe - god willing.

i hope to maintain friendships.

work on my faults.

use my cell phone more - for calling not texting.

call my family more because they love me even though their capable of driving me completely bananas. 

i hope to see my friends more and not just at work.

i hope to find the time to take nail polish off my fingers when it starts to chip - because it looks god awful if i dont - ladies take note.

i hope to find something in all my classes that makes me eager to learn.

and i hope- like im sure my father does, that i find my calling in life and i call it and figure out how to meet it and shake its hand and have it pay me some sort of salary that will buy me a house .... and a pax wardrobe that lights up when i open its glass sliding doors.

i hope two thousand and eleven gives me two thousand and eleven more reasons to be thankful for what i have been given.

two thousand and eleven reasons to make me thankful for what i have yet to be given or haven’t been at all.

i hope two thousand and eleven gives me the opportunity to be happy no matter what happens, good or bad. 

strangers on a street

we walk away from each other like strangers in the street

what we once had for each other now takes a back seat

gone for all eternity, we have erased one another

with all the same mistakes that kept pushing us further

so far from where we came with so much of everything.

how did we start with so much and now end with nothing.

we walk away from our pasts and everything we knew

from everything we built upon and ever worked through

its not worth it any more to hold a broken heart

to feel the pain inside keep beating as we part

so we walk away from it all because its all thats left to do

leave the pieces all behind while they unravel and undo.

so we leave each other on separate corners of dark streets 

too scared to keep holding on while history repeats.

so we walk away from it all and watch our shadows fade

reminded of all the memories that we once made.

and our shadows left lingering just two strangers on a street

distant memories to remind us of our loves defeat. 

© nldm
& lc

where sadness lies

in empty promises you couldn’t keep,

while i laid thinking of you losing so much sleep.

realizing this felt more like a game

the loser accumulating so much blame.

and this is where sadness lies

all over my face with every cry.

so many things said too good to be true

so many things you didn’t follow through.

and this is where sadness lies

within my heart and in my eyes

within every wall that surrounds me here

with every reminder now lies fear

with every wall i let down for you

everything i couldn’t see through. 

and this is where all of my sadness lies

within every cry and every compromise

all throughout my bones and in your lies

within my heart and all of my cries.
this is where my sadness lies.

© nldm