my heart & head

i just wanna close my eyes and fall asleep in your bed

wake up in the morning and pretend like nothing was said.

i just wanna go back to that place when we first met.

small talk, all night, there’s nothing about you i forget.

and i just wanna go back to that place when times were right,

let go of all the anger and pain we hold onto at night.

let go of the misery that lies next to me in bed,

i stay awake at night wishing it was you instead.

where do we go from here, when there’s nothing left.

and what do we do when we’ve given up on the best.

and how do i move on when im only numb inside,

what do you do when your heart and head can’t decide. 

times supposed to heal everything, but im waiting instead,

and while i wait for time, i play back everything you said.

every lie you told, and regret you made me feel,

from all of my days i watched you try to steal.

im wondering when my heart and head will agree,

when will they both understand your not right for me.

when will i stop wishing it was you lying here.

when will all of the pain you brought on disappear.

© nldm