grow up

Growing up means giving up certain idealistic you once had. It means realizing not all things are as easy and simple as they once were before. When you grow up you realize that life becomes harder and scarier and a little more sincere. 

You begin to understand that today will affect tomorrow. You also realize that with a few unsteady turns your world can and will crumble. Social circles get smaller, people move on and your realize certain people are not made or meant for you. You break up with people you thought you would know forever - boyfriends, girlfriends and friends. You say goodbye to things and people. Some planned and some unplanned. Growing up means growing a tougher skin. It means having the ability to get up after you fall down all on your own. Picking yourself up after you landed face first on hard cement floors. 

It makes you feel uncertain and uneasy while its happening. Growing up comes at you full force, emotions exploding and there is no way of avoiding it. You learn some emotions you never felt before, and some you now feel stronger then others. 

Growing up allows you to realize that even with some uncertainties you can put yourself back together after you’ve been torn apart. It means finding yourself and understanding what you want in life. By growing up you see that when you fall off the track you must take a different path. It lets you learn from your mistakes and become less likely to repeat them. You find true lifelong friendships when you let go of your inhibitions and allow yourself to grow up. When you grow up you realize that not all story endings are good ones. Not everyone finds their true loves, but they find people who care. Not all romances are for the best and not all loves are forever. You learn that its nicer to lay next to a warm body then no body at all. Growing up means learning that you never really stop growing up. We grow with everything we do and everything we fall into. We grow in and out of love with ourselves and each other. We never stop growing up. 

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