strong & true

she’s been waiting steady for the answers

time hanging over her like heavy anchors.

wondering when the pain will give in,

all of her hope seems to be running thin.

and she’s staying strong, as strong as she can be,

but she’s waiting for the answers that will help set her free.

she’s looking for solutions to the problems that she bares.

she’s counting all her blessings & thankful for the prayers.

she’s staying optimistic, as optimistic as she can be,

she’s praying the answers come sooner then she's seen

she’s fighting a disease she knows nothing about.

hoping that time will provide answers rather then doubt.

she’s staying strong to herself, strong and true,

remembering that this is just another thing to conquer and get through.

© nldm

deep inside

The memories linger deep inside
And deep inside is where all the pain hides
Your easily reminded by everything bought
Every picture every kiss every fight ever fought
Every moment spent so happy together
Every moment made you believe it was for forever 
But forever ended quickly. Much quicker then we thought
Forever ended sooner then it was even caught.
And you wonder where it all went and when we lost the fight
When good memories faded quick and nothing seemed right
And the pain lingers deep inside
Only to remind me I'm alive
And it numbs me deep to the core
The memories are worse then anything ever felt before. 
And it burns thru my skull like a migraine
If only my head could shake all the pain. 
And here's to the memories that are buried deep inside
Here's to the pain and all of my pride
Here's to the memories and everything we lost 
Here's to what we gave up no matter the cost. 
© nldm 

go fish

your given a set and your searching for a pair

go fish

you make your way by asking questions

go fish

you find some that give you what you need but they’re not what you want

go fish

you keep asking for what the other person has to offer

go fish

your hoping you will win the next hand but people are competing for what you need 

go fish

you compile your cards in hopes to win

go fish

you’ve compiled pairs and some experience to play the game

go fish

you keep fishing till there’s no cards left

or nothing left of you.

go fish.
© nldm 

six freaking pounds

well,
it is obviously clear.... i completely, whether it be with or without trying have fallen off my rocker.
i would like to place blame on my newly acquired boyfriend, which in retrospect doesn't seem so new considering he has conquered six months within my relationship realm... which evidently resulted in six pounds... gained sadly - on his end (like i'm about to admit i gained six pounds.) my relationship has acquired new habits... one of those habits includes me (obviously)... sitting in front of the tube with an extra six pounds (of chris, clearly) and watching reruns of criminal minds (non stop). this nasty habit usually includes one of my two new found obsessions -- EDAMAME (if you don't know what this is ... google it, then proceed to your nearest grocery store and buy it for the sake of your taste buds) as well as BAGEL BITES (self explanatory & the culprit of said six pounds).
throughout several reruns of criminal minds it has become clear that my life is in limbo.
same job, same friends, same boy, same ..... everything... except less money ??? (aritzia .... damn you)
therefore my inspiration to write heart wrenching voo doo has taken a back seat for the obvious reason that nothing heart wrenching has happened to me.
i would like to place blame on the music & movie industry as well because nothing good has come from either recently in order to pull on my emotional heart strings.
i would also like to call on mother nature due to her lack of sunshine she has made it very difficult for me to go about changing my daily schedule (my tan skin doesn't like the cold, therefore it forbids my body to go 'play in the snow' -- no f-ing thanks winter.)
for the few fans that i have ... i promise to rack my brain more often for words, whether they be inspirational, witty, sad, or just anything you can relate to.
i'll find my way out of limbo... and off of the couch (soon hopefully).
in the meantime you can check out my added six pounds and multiple reasons for distraction HERE
(he can rhyme better then me anyways)
i appreciate the support more then you know,
and will make an added effort to make this a daily routine... like brushing my teeth....
if i don't post twice in one day don't judge me though... i swear i brush twice...
;)

let her bleed

you broke her but you set her free.

and the bruises you left set boundaries

for everything she wouldn’t need.

from the inside out you made her bleed.

and the burdens she wouldn’t care to feel.

from all of her days you attempted to steal.

where she laid her heart for you to keep

and buried her life within you so deep

and with every hurtful word you cut right through,

with your sticks and stones you buried her blue.

from the inside out you made her bleed

and day by day you continued to proceed.

you left her there, hung her out to dry,

as all of her days passed you by.

you couldn’t understand the depths of her soul,

mesmerized by her strength, is where you lost control

and you couldn’t hold on as she grew free,

grew from everything you wouldn’t let her see.

she could feel more then you ever could,

and she would grow stronger then you ever would.

it wasn’t long before she learnt to let go,

of the chains you built around her, moving her so slow.

and it took some time but she learnt to run,

from everything you let yourself become. 

© nldm