the haunting .

i wonder how you lie in her bed,

how you fall asleep at night,

thoughts that go through your head,

i wonder how you keep her warm,

when cold blood runs through your veins,

and your hearts made of stone... 

and I’m thankful for all the misery,

for the heart ache and the pain,

for having only the ability,

to prove me wrong again and again.

it only made my skin grow tougher,

made me realize how little your worth,

made my edges a little bit rougher.

made me believe in hell here on earth.

I wonder how you lie to her,

keep secrets like that 

and fall asleep after,

and i wonder if it haunts you like me,

but with no character,

there’s no guarantee.

and if only she knew you were lying,

all your mistakes and what they were implying.

if she knew the things you’d be denying.

i wonder how you can act so happy,

and if it haunts you and not just me... 

i wonder how you act so happy,

she wouldn’t be if she could only see.

i wonder how you fall asleep at night,

if you stay up battling an emotional fight.

i wonder how you even crawl into bed,

and whether you ever feel sorry instead,

and i wonder how you keep her body warm,

i wonder how your able to perform

when yours is as cold as ice,

with all your filthy lies there comes a price.

and I don’t want to be the but of your jokes,

with a heart made of stone, 

I should be the only one laughing. 

at the happiness you created out of lies,

the damage they could do, 

and all the problems that would arise.

and i wonder how you fall asleep at night,

how you dream, 

and are capable of sleeping tight.

and i wonder if it haunts you too,

if you could take it all back 

i wonder what you’d do.

© nldm

prince charming

prince charmings exist. and you will find yours. he may not have the opportunity to take you to a ball. He may not be able to fit a glass slipper on your foot. there will most likely not be a pumpkin carriage. & he most definitely won't kiss you so you wake up from a love spelled curse. There will not be talking tea pots & singing candle sticks. But if you love him for who he really is he will be the prince you only dreamed of. He may not take you to the ball but he will dance with you. And he won't fit a glass slipper to your foot but he will buy you any pair of shoes you want. There won't be a pumpkin carriage but there will be a car & he will open the doors. And if you really want one i'm sure he will buy you a pumpkin. He won't wake you up from a love spelled curse but he will put you in one. And he will talk to you and sing to you and he will think your a beauty when your sleeping. He will make you smile till it hurts. You will be his princess & he will be your prince. He will make you a fairy tale & he will make sure that together you live happily ever after <3

© nldm

just trust .

it’s simple.

all women are the same.

they are all looking for the same things in a guy.

trust is a major factor.

we need to trust you.

we need to trust that when we give you our hearts you aren’t going to break them.

with that being said we also need to trust in every other thing about you.

we need to trust you won’t dress like a fool because we are standing next to you when you go out.

we need to trust that you won’t treat us like sh*t because it is embarrassing.

we trust you will be nice to our friends, or at least try. 

we need to trust that you will act like a gentleman all the time.

we trust that you will listen to us... with your big head.

we trust that you will sometimes (maybe not always) fork the bill & open the doors.

we hope we can trust in you to be the big spoon.

(your bigger then us therefore automatically are given the role of big spoon)

We trust that you will like us so much you talk about us to your friends -

maybe not often but sometimes.

We also trust that when you go out you won’t drool over anything that isn’t us.

NO ONE likes a cheater.

we trust you to be ambitious - we do NOT want to be your sugar mama.

we trust you will make us laugh or at least try to.

We grew up trusting in the idea of fairy tales & prince charmings.

Let us trust you have a little prince in you.

were only asking for trust. 

© nldm

the world NEEDS interesting ...

I challenge you.

I challenge you to be different.

To think outside the box.

I challenge you to do things that you aren’t used to.

Think things you wouldn’t normally think.

Talk to someone you normally wouldn’t.

I challenge you to step outside your own world for a second.

& look at it from a different perspective.

I challenge you to be MORE interesting then you already are.

I challenge you to challenge yourself into being different.

Being weird.

Being random.

Be everything you aren’t & then some.

Be everything you are & then some too.

I challenge you into becoming something you only wish you could be

& then be it.

I challenge you into becoming more of what the world needs.

Be interesting enough for the world to be interested in you.

Be  more interesting

because the world needs it.
 © nldm

a set of beliefs ...

i'll let you in on a few secrets.

i'm complicated with twists of simplicity.

i over analyze everything to points of exhaustion.

but sometimes i get careless & under analyze it all .

i'm a dreamer & wish i could live in the places i make up in my head.

i try to live by believing all things happen for a reason...

even the bad things.

i believe in love at first sight & first encounters

& i believe in being a hopeless romantic.

i believe in shopping when you don't need to buy anything

& spending money you don't have.

i believe in doing things that make you happy

& i believe in going through things to make you stronger.

i believe in laughing so hard it hurts & crying till it actually starts to feel good.

i believe in a higher power & that there are special people looking down on me.

i like to believe that all people are good people.

i believe in desiring happiness all the time.

i'd rather be happy then anything else.

i believe in families that are willing to do anything for you

& friends that are like family.

i believe i'm lucky enough to have that.

& i believe that money can buy you happiness because it bought me my dog.

i believe in dressing however you want to dress- as long as it looks good.

i believe in changing my nail color as often as i change my underwear 
(which is daily - fyi)

i believe in dressing up & dressing down & sometimes not dressing at all.

i believe the pen is much mightier then the sword ALWAYS

& i believe that writing things down puts things into perspective.

i believe in setting your own path & never following someone else's,

unless their path is willing to take you places you can only dream of.

i believe that good things come to those who wait & those who mean well.

i believe in wishing people the best

& being happy for other peoples happiness.

i believe in not believing what people have to say about you

because i believe in believing in yourself.
 © nldm